Dream Recording

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I've been having really weird, vivid dreams the past few consecutive nights. I've forgotten most of them, only remembering how strange they were. But I should start recording them.

Last night, it's hard to recollect most of it, but one scene is hard to erase. I had a dream about talking sea mammals; I think two of them were a dolphin and a shark, but for sure one of them was a huge whale. Not only was it huge, but it also had flying abilities. It actually flew while one of my friends was hanging onto its tail fin. The dolphin and shark and I were discussing how much bigger the whale needed to be in order for the flight to be more successful (?). So weird.


Well that's about it.

P.S. I have a lot to write about what the past month has looked for me, but I am not quite in the pensive mood. Let me just jot down some important themes: fear, truth, and confidence.



{eSeul}

It's Been a While

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Today, I sat on a chair for four hours straight, reading a book.
I don't know how long it's been since I've done that. I feel good.
I feel accomplished.




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안녕.

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난 어제부러 한 한달 동안 잠수 타기로했다.
친구들도 안 만나고, 교회도 안 가고....
It might sound depressing but it's something that had to be done a while back, but apparently right now is the best time for me to do so. I believe in His timing.
Isn't it so interesting, how a 23-second-long conversation and/or incident can completely change one's mind/perspective? I don't know why but I feel so at peace with my decision to disappear for a little bit, when just last month I definitely wouldn't have felt the same.

Well anyways....
I stumbled upon this music video and although I'm generally horrified of clowns, this video is so hauntingly beautiful that I don't mind the clowns at all.
Enjoy.







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Treat My Body Good

Today I was on the elliptical for a mere 20 minutes (with a 2 minute cool-down) which came out to be an equivalence of 1.6 miles and I....am.....pooped.
I wish to be in bed.
A nap after a workout.
Sick.
Anyways...I really need to treat my body better. I always thought that it was okay for me to skip working out because I'm on my feet for 95% of my shifts at work almost every day. But lately, I've been noticing that my body doesn't function the way it used to. I'm tired more, cranky more (this bit could be the result of other factors though), and strange things have been happening to my body. One time, I had a stomach ache unlike any other stomach ache I've had that lasted 3 days straight without rest. My poos haven't been very regular. My limbs have been falling asleep more often than before. Something's up right?!

Well...so it begins. My body doesn't deserve this. It deserves to be taken care of.

IT'S SEXY TIME! :D :/ -__- o.O




{eSeul}

Torn

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Occasionally I find myself in a moment of disparity with the desire for happiness.
Like many people, sometimes I just wish I can be....happy. For once.
But more often than not, I'll wonder if I even deserve to be happy.
No, I'm not a criminal.
Neither am I betrayer.
But I'm not a joy giver either.
I feel torn.
Have you felt this way before?



{eSeul}

Au Revoir, Hiver

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I am utterly heartbroken to say goodbye to winter.
Come the warm air and bright, bright sunshine and all I can do is feel dreadful.
Here are several reasons why I do not love summer:

1. You can only take off so much clothing.
2. As sandals become a part of your daily ensemble, you have to care about painting your toenails. Painting your fingernails is already a task in itself.
3. Sweat. I hate sweat. Especially when it appears after little to no physical activity.
4. You have to shave more often. Whatever girl, you know what I'm talkin' 'bout.
5. Physical affection (I love hugs) becomes less desirable.
6. It's a terrifying thing, entering a car that had been parked outdoors for even less than half an hour.
7. Everyone smells a little more than they usually do.
8. Laundry needs to be done more often.
9. Sleep isn't so comfortable when your skin is touching a surface of any kind. It's these times that I wish I could float.

I want the clouds back. I want the rain back. I want to cozy up. :(




{eSeul}

2011

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Will you walk with me this year?
Let's be hopeful together.
:)




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