For dinner I decided to have some garlic bread with the bread we ate with the chicken noodle soup last night. But it didn't really fill me up, so I was thinking about eating some leftover 콩나물 국 (spicy bean sprout soup), but I didn't want to eat rice.

Then I thought that maybe I could eat something less heavy than rice like...ramyun, but it's so unhealthy, especially with all that "stuff" in the soup powder.

And then..I had a brilliant idea. I could eat cook the ramyun noodles in the 콩나물 국!

Dang...such deliciousness.

Now I am off to Big Bear for a mini small group getaway. Time to slow down....



{eSeul}

Face to Face

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Today while I was making chicken noodle soup, I was listening to songs on my Pandora.
One of the songs mentioned the words "face to face" and I immediately thought,
'How cliché.'

But the more I thought about the phrase, it became quite the contrary....
I just imagined Him standing before my eyes, looking at me with a compassion that cannot be explained. I mean, just try to imagine that, meeting Him face to face....

It is something that I yearn for. That peace and comfort, in knowing that He will tell me that I have done well. He will tell me thanks for holding on. He will tell me that He is proud of my willingness to be broken, to dwell in the darkness and overcome it.

As much as I yearn for it, I know that I won't be able to have this encounter if I don't endure.

2nd day of Lent and I'm already desiring Him more.




{eSeul}

Beautiful Redemption

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"I cry 'Father, Father forgive me.'
And You say...Child, I already have."
"Beautiful Redemption" by Joy Williams


It's days like today where I wish that He can rescue me. Let me experience eternal peace. Let me experience eternal joy, one that I cannot fathom.

So I ask Him to come and rescue me.

But I know...that I have yet to experience so much. He has so much still in store for me.
I just gotta soldier on. This is just another storm.

And He tells me...that He already has.

God just works in the funniest ways you know?

I've been thinking of reasons left and right, on why I've been such an angry person the past several months. And only recently have I realized that I really don't know why I'm so angry.
And then I was reading a book that was written by a man who had lost the most important women in his life, all in one day. He mentioned how sometimes anger is one way that we choose not to deal with our pain. We focus on all that has changed since a loss, and so we unknowingly deal with those unwanted changes instead of the loss itself. That explains a lot, because a lot of that anger would stir when I am at home, where I am reminded most of these changes.

So I want to say...that maybe it's something deeper. That anger that surfaces inside you or someone near to you, probably comes from somewhere a lot deeper than just "you". Take a closer look at your heart and all that affects/affected who you are today.

It's painful...but nobody said it was easy. At the same time, it'll help us be...a little less hard on ourselves. :)



{eSeul}