Peace Within the Storm

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There is a girl sitting under a tree, resting. Her arms are around her legs, and she’s looking far off into the distance, probably the sky.
But it’s raining. There is wind and the skies are gray, but she seems to be oblivious to it all.
I think she’s crying.
It looks like an unhappy picture, but there is something beautiful about it.
It’s beautiful…because there is a sense of peace.
She appears to be at peace.

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I drew this picture during small group in hopes to express who I am when I’m not around people.
When I’m with people, it’s always a sunshine-y day.
And it’s not a façade. It used to be a façade. But I truly do feel uplifted when I’m surrounded by my community.
Sure there are things that they have yet to learn about me, and there are things that I choose not to share, but what can I do…I’m just happy when I’m with them.
But when I’m alone…I am the girl under that tree. I am in a storm, and I’m crying. But in this season of my life, there is an undeniable peace that I don’t want to let go of, that I can’t let go of.
Ever since the new year began, God has been revealing to me day by day what is in store for me this year. No, nothing is crystal clear, but that joy that I’ve been craving feels so close….

Seems like such an oxymoron…peace within the storm. But that’s only possible because God is here. He is next to me. He knows what I need.

I can already feel Him molding me. Since my last entry, walking into my home has become exponentially bearable. And I know that my mom feels it, too. She’s noticing the light ever so slowly but surely forming from that candle.

“And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding,
will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
–Philippians 4:7

It's like...when you're running from the cafe to your car while it's raining cats and dogs. It's not the most pleasant feeling, getting your clothes and shoes wet, but you find yourself smiling the entire way.

Find your peace within the storm.



{eSeul}