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Sigh....

Oh how I wish I was in Paris...or Korea...or anywhere but here.

Day after day, home is a reminder of all that is unfamiliar. Different walls, different ambience, different TV, different people...including myself.
Despite how much I want God to change all of those things, I've been asking God to transform my heart more than anything else.

Pastor Dave shared on Sunday something that confirmed to me what I really need to do. He said that many times we ask God to change people so that they measure up to our expectations, that one day they will learn what they're doing wrong. But, as we wait patiently and just lift everything up to Him, He will transform the relationships rather than change the people.

My patience had been dying out. And what I resorted to is having thoughts of escaping from all this mess. But I just need to continue to wait on Him, and see why He's kept me here.

I want to be a light at home; I want to be transformed from a useless melted candle in a dark room into something molded in His image, by His hands....

"For this reason I bow my knees before the Father,
from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named,
that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you
to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being,
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith-that you,
being rooted and grounded in love,
may have strength to comprehend with all the saints
what is the breadth and length and height and depth,
and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge,
that you may be filled with all the fullness of God."
-Ephesians 3:14-19

As much as I want to dwell in His presence, I need Him to dwell in me.
There is a reason for everything....


{eSeul}